It's a .....

Ok ok so I'm late on telling u I'm sure u already know! It a boy!!!! Let me start from the morning of...

Wednesday morning I had an appointment for my ultrasound.. It was me Gena and Oni (akira was at her dads but she made it clear she wished she could be there:(...) I have been really excited and nervous for this day it felt like it was taking FOREVER to get here!! I knew we would need to leave early so I rushed everyone to get up and get going (ofcourse we ate) and I realized I needed to drink tons of water or else I would be rescheduled :( so we went to 7eleven and I got a big ol bottled water and drank mostly all of it , man by the time we got there I sooooo needed to use the restroom!!

I got called in for my ultrasound but prior to that I got a bunch of txts asking if I knew yet!!:) awww ppl from work my sister and my friends were all waiting for me to tell them... Well we walked in the tech cked all if the babys body his heart head limbs and so on... I was amazed I can literally see in details his little hands and feet!!! At one point it was so precious I saw his feet together and they looked perfect.. It's like u were looking at his bottom of his feet and it was detailed:*) his hands and arms looked long to me and he moves ALOT I only feel a few kicks but he was literally moving like he was all hyper...

When she was finally able to tell me what were having she aid " Oh it's a boy" me and Oni both gasped!! I told her "ok don't tease me please make sure please" I'm not going to lie... I started crying..then she turns and says Oh yea this is a boy look!! Omg!! His butt was on the screen (she froze the pix for us to see and she printed it out) and we saw his little long legs and there it was... A boy:*) I couldn't help but tear up more Gena gave Oni a hug and said " now u have ur boy daddy"!! See before we got there she told us she wanted a brother so her daddy can have his baby... In her mind she's my and her gandmas (both) baby because she's a girl and her daddys needed a boy so he can have his baby...:) so she was happy to hear she's having a brother...

Once we were done we debated and decided NOT to tell our parents until we see them that day we bought a picture frame for both so we put the babys ultrasound (his profile not the proof it's a boy lol) and on the bottom it said " it's a boy" oh man once we got in the car his mom called asking what were having..... She wasn't happy when he said shell have to wait even my mom called me a "sangrona" she's been waitng for my call at work since 11 and said even ppl at her work were wanting to know!(I use to work there also) but it was worth the wait when we told my mom (she was told first) she beamed and hugged us both she's so happy for us:) see she knew we wanted another baby so he's planned out and they were all prepared the Grls were more unplanned blessings... hell be soo loved and spoiled I soo can already tell!! My mother inlaw was next.... She cried... My father inlaw was in total shock.... He wanted us to also have a boy...

Akira came home on Friday and when I told her she was excites she has a brother from her dads but she say this one she knows will shave better!!! Hahaha.... Both the Grls can't stop talking to my belly and even say good morning and goodnight to him.. He's not even here yet and he's soooooo loved<3 I can't wait to meet him.... his name has been picked out for a while now... It's not different or unique like the girls and our names.... He's named after 2 extremly special ppl in our lives... Ppl who have made a difference and are held dear in our hearts... But it's a secret until he's born... If u already know it it's because I trust u and know you'll keep it hush hush lol.... Thanks for reading!!!

18 and 19 weeks

Lately I feel like Im blowing up....I can feel my tummy growing....it sounds weird I know. Last night I had major insomnia.......it was awful... I went to bed at 10pm and was awake...I couldnt get into a deep enough sleep=( Maybe it was because I napped for 2hrs from 5-7 never again will I be napping so late. I mentioned before about my lack of appetite...well its still there. This weekend Oni bought me some L&L which I love but ate like 1 1/2 pieces of chicken and a few bites of rice and macaroni salad and was done... looked like I didnt even touch it..that day I ate 2 times and honestly felt ok. I started snacking more often even though Im not hungry and so far its ok but I need to admit its hard to gulp..I feel sick eating when I am not hungry but I do it for the baby, I have lost about 2lbs which Im sure I will gain back before my next appt.

Tomorrow we will find out what we are having !! Im soo excited ppl keep asking me what I want..honestly I want a little boy..BUT a little princess would be awesome also.....Oni and I have been wanting this baby for a while now so what ever God gives me is still a blessing..I feel it move everyday! Mainly at night oh man! Last night he/she was having a little party! haha Everyone has their opinion as to what we are having many say boy....some say girl...someone will be proved wrong tomorrow IF the baby lets us see =) Soooooooooo I will post tomorrow and let u know! =)

Making itself known

Yesterday I felt baby kick!:) it was weird because it was so gentle .. I was leaning forward to read something on one of my screens and *kick kick* on my lower tummy...I guess it was letting me know it didn't like being squished lol.. It such a sweet little kick too.... Still soft and gentle enough sortof like a little tap on the shoulder:) I turned 18 weeks yesterday... I need to take a picture of my belly still... But I don't think it looks that different. Some little changes: less if an appetite... I eat small in the am... A crossiant and tea... Then fruit and yogurt. Lunch also a small meal... Yesterday sopa and a tortilla. Dinner pasta and beef but a small bowl.

I did have a hypoglycemic attack yesterday:( I get shaky and dizzy and my heart races... It's happened more when I'm pregnant it means my sugar levels are low... But it's because I'm not eating alot... But if I eat alot I feel sick. it went away after a few minutes but I wanted to cry!... Oni knows I have it.. He makes sure to get what ever I need when it happens but I was at work so I drank cold water and had some sweets. I need to have 6 small meals so it won't happen again which will be hard.. But I never want to feel like that ever again!!!
Also I notice I'm becoming a clean freak AGAIN yes again I was before I got pregnant but I got lazy. Poor hubby and kids Im making the girls clean up all their things even Gena they are old enough to help.. Akiras been helpin for a long time but now she has more to do.. And now it's Gena who started she puts her toys away but now it's her cloths she needs to put away and get dressed alone fix her bed and so on.. She has moments where she's not to happy about it, but still does it. :)

I'll update later on a picture! Thanks for reading

Emotional Roller Coaster

Lately I have been feeling very emotional, I cant explain why...but I can say that its been constant. When it finally hit me was on Fathers Day, my sister wanted to get together and then go see my dad, well I havent gone to see him since last year and I feel that if I would go I would need to be alone...every time I go I break down, I miss him ALOT. I literally will sit on his grave ( ok next to him) and cry and talk to him as if he can hear me and hes there. I told her I wouldnt be able to go that I would need to go alone, I also cancelled going out with them mainly because I had a migraine and Oni wanted a quiet day at home. I dont know why but with this pregnancy I find myself missing him ALOT more than normal. He passed away 21yrs ago, I always miss him, but never to where I just think about him and start crying....I cant even talk about him anymore because it will make me want to start bawling...I just wish he was here it seems like the older Im getting the more I miss him. My father in law has been a wonderful father figure for me and great grandfather to the grls, he has accepted me and Akira without hesitation into the family and has always embraced us....he never makes us feel like we dont belong. Last year he had a bypass........10 of them and couldve died....it made me feel like I was loosing my father all over again, we dont have a father daughter relationship but we have a close one enough to where he always will ask how I feel and what Im doing and thinks about me when he cooks...he makes me my favorites more now than ever! haha.....I dont know I hope I can control my emotions a little more. Im afraid the baby will come out always sad or always crying if I dont control myself...... I just wish he was here to see me be pregnant and I wonder what hed be thinking.... just writing this makes me want to cry.........

4months!

Last Tuesday I turned 4months!! I cant believe Im already almost half way!




This one is from my 17 weeks which was this week



A few changes: Im sore....I mean my "chest" is REALLY sore..u know what I mean......lol also I notice lately Im WAY more emotional...and sensative I will cry for the little things I feel I normally wouldnt. This past weekend was EXTRA hard since it was Fathers Day, my dad has been gone for 21yrs and being pregnant makes it harder for me, a girls dream is to have her daddy there he and I were really close...Ask my mom~ And I feel I need him more and more each day .....So maybe thats what makes me more emotional.Also I CANT eat chocolate!!!!!!!!! I KNOW! My hubby gave me a ding dong I was craving one day....well I ate it...YUCK!!! I soo wanted to throw up! I had some water and thin pretzels, it calmed my stomach. I am wanting more lollipops (tootsie pops)I dont want junk food anymore and Im still walking.

I use to be able to sleep 7hrs and be really ok all day well no more! lol I cant get enough sleep! One weekend I woke up at 12!!!! It felt sooo good lol. Its funny I have ppl asking me more and more if Im pregnant...I always say "Well Im not fat or bloated ;) ofcourse I ONLY say that to ppl who I CAN joke with lol....so far I feel good! Lazy but I think thats normal lol....oh well!

15 weeks

I know I have been gone for a few weeks......its all due us getting things more settled and also my laptop wasnt charged. I was sick for a total of 2 1/2 weeks. As you know being pregnant your immune system is weaker...and trust me its WEAK!

Heres me at 15 weeks taken today.........





Here are a few things that I notice are different..

I no longer crave junk.....I rather eat fresh fruit, mainly watermelon and yellow cherries. I am extremly tired still though... but the best is that I dont have anymore morning sickness!! woohoo! I have been noticing I get up more at night to use the rest room.... while at the store I do have to go more....Oni always says "Again??" lol yes again..... People are saying Im small for being almost 4months I guess compared to my previous pregnancies I am smaller, mainly because Im also lighter than I was before I got pregnant. My other pregnancies I had morning sickness ALL the time.... I ate alot also and now I notice my appetite has sortof decreased...not alot but its mellowed down...

I wanted to post other pixs of the previous weeks but thought maybe it would be to many =)

Thanks for reading and sorry about the delay!!!

Tired......

Lately I have been SOOOO tired, I dont want to do much when I get home, making dinner is a must so I do that but cleaning up after, I wont sometimes I will pick up but wont clean like I normally do........I wont mop or dust, I just put the food away and soak the dishes. I am 9 weeks last week, I have a picture but will update the blog later, I notice that certain bad foods help me QUICK in the am, example: Lays sour cream and onion chips, I have a couple to help me avoid feeling sick, then off to work!!

In the am I normally eat cereal, I tried having oat meal but I CANT stomach it anymore, not right now. The changes I notice is just the tiredness, I nap at work on my breaks, I have about 2 so I take 30min all day and still walk at work, today I didnt I have been dealing with a cold.I know Im allowed to take certain medicine,but Im not the type to feel confident and just start taking things, I was given a list of things I can take when Im sick, but I rather play it safe and not take anything so I think napping eating oranges and drink water.....People at work are starting to notice a tummy/baby bump, to them it happened over night, TRUE, but so far everyone seems to be very happy about me being pregnant =)

I will post a picture tomorrow I turn 10 weeks........WOW almost 3months!